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Tuesday, December 15th, 2009
11:52 pm	aggghhhhh. i have nothing to do right now and i'm one part bored, 3 parts pining. pining for people I used to know, used to be close to...that's the strongest, but also the usual pining for mn and my hs and my teachers...even my family. An overall sense of longing and incompleteness and restlessness. I need a change. And I need something to do right now.............awleijfoiawej Current Mood: indescribable (Comment on this)
1:14 am	I love this post! First line (or thereabouts) of first entry of each month. January And now...class. That occupies most of my time these days, when not slightly freaking out about where my dollars for scholars info went and how I'm going to pay Jan rent...still working on those. February Words can't even tell how excited I am for spring sem; March mmmmsunlight I should shout to the world how much better I have felt this past week! Seing as all my recent posts have been about how difficult of a time I've been having...But yeah, been cheery for days, it's lovely. April Welcome aboard ye olde Facebook! May I am pleasant, right now. Despite having a 15 minute presentation due Wednesday evening w/no visuals, no research, few sources at this time. June Important things of late (brief) July Oh Camp. I love my boys August I should not be awake at 1:54 AM... I'm tired out. But in a good way. I just had a bit of a cry and it was very calming and now I feel like I can go to bed. September chem best bet? http://www.textsociety.com/default.asp?pid=1739 October SSA There's an event tonight called "Evolution vs. Atheism". Think about that for a second. It took awhile to hit me...then it made me laugh. November Hmm...I'm a little nervous... Cuz nobody is in this lab, except for two classmates of mine, but they're working on chemistry December Let the end begin. hahaha what a great ending! Bring it on, finals week. Bring it on, 2010. Aislin Current Mood: cheerful (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 13th, 2009
10:52 pm	Oh my gosh I'm tired....so tired right now. I'm posting, brushing my teeth, changing into jammies and crawling into sweet sweet bed. Tonight I had a "chem study party" which was, once again, me and one other person. Lindsay, who lives next door and has become my regular study partner. Lately it's been at least twice a week. 3 other people were s'posed to come tonight, but they all bailed, which is sad. We didn't get a whole lot accomplished...we're both just so tired of it. and so tired. We do a really good job of studying, actually - on Thursday we studied for 6 whole hours, minus the time it took us to get Panera to go. And you know what, she feels like she failed her retake that night and I feel like I failed our quiz that night and we both feel merely alright about our respective other exam. What a waste of my life. So tonight it was really hard to get anything into my brain...c the speed of light is 3x10^8...c the specific heat of water is 4.184 J...R the Rydberg constant is 1.097x10^-34???...R the..something else is .08206...h Planck's constant is...:( I can't recalllll and I used to know that one real well. Now they are all just bleeding together. It doesn't help that they use the same letter for multiple things, right? But I did just realize that the conversion factor on my calculator will change amu to grams, so I don't have to re-memorize the mass of an electron! Yes! Or the conversion factor itself...I'm useless with units. I'll just stick to my 1/1837 amu = one electron formula and be happy. That's enough on my death-to-all-comprehensive-chemistry-final. Other finals are ab psych tomorrow which I will 1/2 BS, 1/2 ace, end with an easy A in the class. Last stats test which I desperately need to do some work on but will only put in maybe an hour and a half for, because once again I will still get an A in the class if I do only reasonably well on the test. I've gotten over a 95% on every test in both those classes, I think. My psych major is a joke...but that's a bitter rant for another day. My bio minor is NOT and I have a comprehensive final I'm a little freaked for on Friday, until I keep reminding myself that I think I can get a D on the test and still keep my B in the class...and I don't plan on getting a D. A C maybe, but that's ok. Anyway, I've been making some headway on that studying...Chemistry doesn't provide any way of gauging what grade I have in the class or how much this last test will affect it, which is actually proving really detrimental to my motivation...right now I feel like giving up. I have put more time and effort into this class than I think any other one. Ever. And for what? What do I have to show for it? Maybe a C, but the truth is I don't even know because I have no clue what my grade is! So far I know I've gotten one B and 2 C's on the three tests we've seen our scores for. Aced one quiz, D on another, 80%B on the third. *sigh* In much happier news, this weekend was a much less study-filled or school-filled weekend, but I don't regret it, even with finals week starting tomorrow. I needed the nice relaxation time and I certainly needed the nice Caleb time. He was exceptionally sweet, probably in part because I got exceptionally pissed off at him the weekend before. I don't care though. I'm over it, I'm trying to take that weekend's lesson to heart, and I thoroughly appreciated and loved his good behavior this one :) Complete with a really beautiful bouquet of flowers, taking me grocery shopping, and cooking for me while I was at work. lol, I sound so domestic and old...I enjoy my adult life at times like this (At times like job hunting, not so much;). And he took a good deal of time to play mandolin on his own, which gave me the motivation I was lacking to do some studying and provided a nice background soundtrack. Why am I still awake? It is so bedtime. 2 hours ago. *sigh* two hours ago I was neck deep in chem constants and quantum mechanics, getting very little out of it...so now i'm gonna go to bed! Goodnight, all. Oh look! Safari doesn't mark "goodnight" as misspelled! This makes me happy. *yawn* Aislin It does, however, underline my name. Current Mood: sleepy (Comment on this)
Monday, December 7th, 2009
5:45 pm	Let the end begin. (Comment on this)
Monday, November 30th, 2009
9:54 pm	Hear my motor purr... Satan is the only one who seems to understand. Lol, I don't mean that, but I certainly do appreciate the song; Satan is My Motor by Cake. I appreciate lots of music right now. I'm in a very music mood. Probably good since I'll be getting up at 6:15 as per usual Tuesday mornings to do my 7:30 radio show. I should probably not be staying up so late, what w/that...I took a nap today and woke up so incredibly tired. Snapped out of it, but going to class was a test of my willpower. But then we got candy and watched a movie, so totally worth it. College has its good times. I was also having difficulty standing after my bath, I was so tired. It was weird. It's also different having a computer at my apt to access internet with...Caleb is letting me borrow mine, though I did just turn in my papers so I guess that's ironic timing but it's very nice of him. LJ is different when i can get on it whenever I want...I think my blogs have changed a lot since college because I have changed and also, I can only get on it at school. Being able to ramble and rant on here whenever I have a whim might be a dangerous thing ;-) Oooh, Beck's playing now. I've forgotten my love for them. I should compile a lost of things to play tomorrow...I wish I could just play pandora. It does all the work for me :) But that's no fun, now, is it? I enjoy my show. WRSE.com, everybody. I'm rereading The Time Traveler's Wife, and for once it is significantly less of an experience than the first time i read it. My remarkably bad memory serves me well when it comes to rereading books - quite well. But this one has let me down. It doesn't hold the power it did for me the first time. But. I can relate to it much more than I could before, being that I'm both 2 years older or somewhere around there and in my first "serious" relationship. So that is nice. Still a beautiful book, just not the life-changing quality as it was before. Teresa says the new Niffenegger is a disappointment :( Sad day. I'm not studying any chemistry. I haven't even opened my book since class a week ago. I did pretty much zero schooling all break. That was nice. But it's going to bite me in the ass tomorrow, oh yes it is...Maybe I'll find my motivation during the long stretch between radio show and class. Thanksgiving break was...odd. I don't think Caleb or I quite know how to handle ourselves in eachother's presence for that long of a period...it's so beyond our norm. We'd learn if we had more opportunities. I want to live w/him...we don't know how to make that work. There's a lot going on there. My mom and I are fighting again. Fighting in so much as we ever fight...which is to say, she sent me one of her cookie cutter emails and I let myself respond to it in a less than meek way...she wrote back another long and raw message and I copy-pasted a sentence from her first one and sent that by itself. That's where it's stopped right now. It's not a good situation really because I can't bring myself to actually fight w/her, fully tell her why I act the way I do, defend myself or do more than hint at my complicated and negative opinions of her...but I no longer just shut my mouth tight and let her talk, either. I'm in between and I don't know if it's good. I'm so much more comfortable when we're just not talking...like we were for most of this year. Which is what started this whole ordeal. Not "not talking" not talking, just me being busy and as separated from that part of my life as I can be; just how I like it. I told you, this internet at home thing...my entries are less to the point and more personal. Ah well, you don't mind, do you dear reader? I miss... I miss. Caleb. French Horn. Teachers. But I feel good right now. I really have nothing much of importance to say right now...that's not true, I should write about my new half-job, I just don't feel like it much. I'm working w/a fellow class of 2012'er who has CP and requires assistance w/the norm stuff during the day. Pretty sure I can say her name...but you know, old habits die hard. She's great :) I've been wanting to get to know her since I've been at thiss school and we finally will! I had a pretty good first day. It was kind of fun because the caf was closed, news to us, so we had to order pizza and amuse ourselves w/reminiscings over camp and MN until it came. Also, just before I left we took care of some standard PC stuff and it went mostly well...a few slight wobbles getting back into the wheelchair, but nothing big. She told me that was the best anybody had done her first day and she was blown away, so I'm feeling pretty proud :) I'm working a few hours each Sunday until January. Now, to find a job to pay the bills. Alright folks, I'm off. Thanks for sticking w/me. Current Mood: content Current Music: Crazy - Gnarles Barkley. Thank you, Pandora (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 19th, 2009
4:47 pm	I've been doing much better about my procrastination problem the last few days. I'm nearly done w/my biology paper. Just needs some severe editing and a works cited. Then ab psych paper this weekend, and though it'll probably be really long, it should be ridiculously easy. It's pretty much just BS + a book report. *sigh*...that class.. Tonight I'm going to the Twilight movie. I'm not terribly thrilled...however, it is an excellent opportunity for some quality roommate bonding (both of them!), it's free, and I get to be aquainted to some neat people. So they sold me. But I still feel weird about it... Right now I'm late for a homework session w/my chem friend. And btw, I still haven't seen my last test in that class. Arghhh. Aislin (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 17th, 2009
10:20 am	I don't know where to begin... I registered for classes an hour ago and it went smashingly. I got every class I wanted at the time I wanted. I'm pretty stoked for both J and Spring terms! Schedule-wise anyway. I'm still not taking any real psych content courses...I have a feeling next year I will be bombarded (and I'll finish my minor, I think!) However, i did just notice I'm s'posed to have taken 101 as a prereq for chem 103...I'm pretty sure 211 will cover it, but I sent an email asking. Anyway, they let me register for it... I did my radio show today, that went well. I figured out how to fix the CD player (which broke on me spontaneously AGAIN!) and played Boy Girl Wonder w/a little snippet about Transgender Day Of Remembrance on Friday. I feel accomplished. Um...the bad news. It still hasn't hit me yet. I just don't even know how to react to this...so i kind of haven't. There's going to be a memorial service for her on Friday Dec 4, which I am definitely going to...that might be emotional. No, that will be emotional, I'm just waiting to see how I will respond to it. Kristing Spangler passed away on Nov 12th due to cancer. I first encountered KSpang through auditioning for Midsummer, at the very beginning of last school year, my freshman year. I was immediately smitten w/her! I was quite alright w/not getting in to my first audition (especially one as popular as Midsummer) but I was really bummed about not getting the opportunity to work w/the amazing director who ran auditions and was full of creativity and talent and beauty and life...I'm telling you, smitten. So when I saw that I could take an acting class as a gen ed, I jumped at the chance and made absolutely sure I signed up for the section she was teaching. She was a phenomenal teacher, the best I've had at this institution, actually; she is so talented as an actor and has the rare ability of transforming that into good teaching. I thoroughly enjoyed my semester with her, even if I did get a B ;) *sigh*...so last fall she had long hair, lots of energy, nothing to indicate she was sick (T recently told me she'd been battling cancer for 2 1/2 years, I certainly did not know this). Last spring she had no hair/eyebrows/etc and wore a plethora of hats but still had plenty of energy and did not seem at all sickly. She missed class, maybe twice for medical reasons...And then this fall, she has passed away. I didn't see her this whole year but a friend of mine is in that very same acting class and says KSpang had only been their teacher for a few days at the beginning, and otherwise they've had a permanent sub. The progression of this is so fast...Just over a year ago nobody could even tell she was sick. And I still don't feel sad, just...bewildered! I just can't take it in. The only people I've had die who I knew were my grandparents, and I was fairly young. Plus I didn't know her very well...it's just...it's weird. And really really "unfair". I don't think there is such a thing as fairness in matters of dying because I don't believe there are higher powers or laws governing what can or cannot happen, but it does seem a shame that such a beautiful, fun woman who brought joy to so many people is gone, so early in her life...she couldn't've been more than 40. Oh dear... Alright, that's been said now. Make what you will of it. I have to go home and shower and please stop procrastinating on these papers...I need to get started on them, I do... Aislin Current Mood: indescribable Current Music: Boy Girl Wonder - Bitch&Animal (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, November 13th, 2009
11:19 am	Bio went pretty well :) I took my test this morning and am hoping for an A. Didn't put down an answer on one of the labeling questions and drew amino acids pretty drastically incorrectly in the peptide bond formation question. That was just a stupid mistake - the mistake of not studying what I KNEW would be on there because the point of it is dehydration synthesis, which I've known since 10th grade. I did that part right. But the actual molecules being joined, lol...yeah no. I remembered seconds before the test that I hadn't studied that but couldn't find it in my inch thick notes in time. Oh well, I'd be surprised if I didn't get at least 2 out of the 5 points for that, since I got the N-C orientation and the dehydration correct. Minus another point for the labeling is -4, and I feel relatively confident about the rest of it. A B anyway, but hopefully an A. I'm happy. And proud of all the studying I put into that at the end there - the last month in bio has really not done me well. Or rather, I haven't done it well. My quiz scores are abysmal... The Roomies watched "Up" last night :) We so rarely get time to do things all together. Maybe next semester. It was a cute movie - I actually liked the Talking Dog character the most; unusual! I have a musical audition tomorrow. I've never done this and have not prepared at all (I just picked out 2 musical score booklets to check out and will choose a song today - to perform tomorrow morning at 9!). Oh well. I don't feel bad because I don't have the time or know-how to properly prepare. I'll just wing it and see. It's for the J-Term class I wanna take - basically choir but w/an emphasis on musical theatre. I'd be stoked if I got in ;) Aislin Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: "May God bless you..." (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 11th, 2009
10:22 pm	That's right I studied bio for 6 hours today. 1:30-9 minus awhile of dinner, tv, emily texting (about my bio actually! It was an amusing study session...but not very productive) I'm not done yet, but I might be for the night. We'll see. I have a practice problems sheet I need to do before going to school tomorrow, so I might start it tonight then wake up early-ish and finish it. I feel much better about Friday's test, now. I'm still not at all where I should be at, so we'll see but I might be able to BS my way to a good grade. Cuz now I mostly understand everything, I just don't have any of it memorized. Earlier today I didn't even understand it. SAGE now. I decided I needed an uplifting break. Aislin (2 Comments |Comment on this)
10:34 am	I'm going to go home, cook a nice lunch, deal with the dishes in the sink, and study for biology at least five hours today. I'm going to start with the first chapter in the textbook and not read it word-for-word (we have 7 chapters on this test) but take notes on key points and do a more detailed reading of anything I don't comprehend. I'm going to use my powerpoint slides to help me understand what I'm reading. I'm going to draw out the processes of mitosis, meiosis, transcription, and translation (all of them - this is a hell of a lot more than 4). I'm going to make a list of all the enzymes/proteins and what their function is. I'm going to do the practice worksheet she gave us. I'm going to figure out how to square/square root decimals! And tomorrow I'm going to go to Dr. Mellgren's office, check my practice sheet answers against hers, and maybe talk to her about what I don't understand. We'll see how tonight's studying goes, and how swamped she is tomorrow. And tomorrow, I'm going to do it all again. Plus finish my labwork for chemistry. And when I'm done w/this test on Friday, I'm going to make it my new project to figure out what I can actually do about my chemistry "teacher". Perhaps I should send the head of the department an email? I really don't know... So yes, last night I took the chemistry test I had been studying SO FREAKING HARD for. I don't know how I did. I was doing super good, I think...then I got to a problem which used a formula which included a constant she said she would give us on the test. Last night she denied having ever said that. That one problem alone was worth 10 of the 100 points. So. I don't know how I did, and I left the building and burst into tears. Plus, she implied that it's my fault for not trying hard enough and not doing my work that I don't understand the concepts in chemistry. It was not a good night... And the night before that wasn't good either, for very different reasons than chemistry though...but w/pretty much the same emotions and behaviors. Life's been tough lately. But I'm going to do this biology work, not put it off and off and off like I have been doing because I'm so far behind in understanding I don't even know where to begin. No, not gonna happen. Bye. Aislin Current Mood: discontent (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 4th, 2009
10:24 am	My life right now I just sent this letter to Aaron, of The Leader. I was technically working for them as an advertisement salesperson. I think it's pretty clear how that turned out... Aaron - I'm sorry Aaron, but I have to "resign" from my ad position. Since our meeting last week I have been going through my schedule every day to try and find a long enough time-block to go sell some ads, but all of my "free time" is claimed by paper deadlines or study groups or something else of that nature. My grades are slipping right now, and I need to be focusing even more time on my studies, not less. I hate to leave you guys hanging so late in the season, but I'm not bringing in any sales as it is, so hopefully you can find someone more qualified as soon as possible. I was hoping this job would pan out well for all, but between time constrictions and being far too passive to be a good salesperson, I'm afraid this is the right decision. Thank you for your time, Aislin I'm proud of myself for sending this. I've known for weeks that it was not going to work, but then we'd have another team meeting and everybody would be full of encouragement so I'd give it another shot, but to no avail. This needed to happen. I think it's a pretty respectable resignation letter and now it's done with so won't weigh me down with anxiety any longer. Good, I'm proud of myself for finally getting it over with. ( Yay chemistry! ...what? ) Aislin Current Mood: ..better... (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 3rd, 2009
1:54 pm	No matter how many school effups I have in a short time span, MLIA makes me feel better. So does TFLN. Here's a gem: Today I tried out this ever-popular Google vs. Yahoo brawl and I typed in "Why is six". Yahoo gave me the expected "Why is six afraid of seven?" One of Google's suggestions was "Why is six flags using a creepy old guy to attract kids?" Google makes a good point. MLIA. Now I want to play this game. Let's do it, folks. Oh yeah, and continuing my string of failures, I left all my chemistry at Caleb's. Including the assignment that's due today that I spent my entire train ride on. (Comment on this)
Monday, November 2nd, 2009
5:42 pm	SCHOOOOL AAAAAAAGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!! Yep, it was late. And I have very little idea of what we talked about in class this morning. And I NEVER remember to study for our weekly Monday quizzes. And I just got done w/a test, and I have a stats one coming up that I barely know any of the material for and chemistry's a bitch. In short, I'm sick of school. And I'm really upset w/myself for turning that biology paper in late. Which means I get 0 credit for that section. After I went through a hell of a lot of anxiety about how I was going to do it, stayed after lab on Friday (which sucks as I need to catch a train at that time) and made Professor Mellgren go out of her way to teach me the stats part and got up early this morning to finish it. But it's very much my own fault, and that just sucks. Just sucks. Aislin Current Mood: distraught (Comment on this)
12:43 pm	Hmm...I'm a little nervous... Cuz nobody is in this lab, except for two classmates of mine, but they're working on chemistry. See, this small lab in schaible is one of the very few places where the computers have the sigma stat program on them...a program we need to do this latest section of our bio reports, due today. I think it's due at 2:00. But I can't find documentation anywhere of that time, and didn't ever ask the professors. And nobody is in here. Which makes me think that it is quite possible that I missed the deadline, as it was actually before 2...this place was jam-packed after bio at 10:30. That would be lame, cuz I did it and got it in and it's fine. None of my sections have been good - they've all been just fine. But still, I want (and need!) credit for this...I don't think I get late-assignment credit. Well, I'll wait and see if she replies to my email. I have an ab psych midterm in 2.25 hours. I'm going to go home and study for it, then come back. Yes, I'm aware that the extra traveling is a waste of my time, but I'm ok with that. I'm not overly worried about this test, but I ought to go home and study. Yeah, now. Oh, but one pleasant note - I have a full-sized bed, complete w/mattress, boxsprings, and feet. Prior to that I was sleeping on an uncomfortable twin mattress on the floor; uncomfortable twin mattresses at camp; and an incredibly uncomfortable, also small futon. I appreciate this bed SO MUCH. Even though it was such a bitch to get in and out of that van... Adios. Aislin Current Mood: cynical (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 28th, 2009
8:28 pm	Matthew Shepard and James Byrd, Jr. Hate Crimes Prevention Act (This is a copy of an email from Lambda Legal SAGE's advisor forwarded to the listserve) This is an historic day: President Obama has signed the Matthew Shepard and James Byrd, Jr. Hate Crimes Prevention Act into law — the first federal law in our nation’s history that specifically protects the lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender community. Years after the tragic murders of Matthew Shepard, Brandon Teena, Sakia Gunn and others our government is finally standing up and saying: No more. Our community demanded action, and we never gave up. This law will send a message that violence motivated by hate will not be tolerated in this country and is a welcome first step towards other critical protections for the lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender community. Lambda Legal represented the family and estate of Brandon Teena, a transgender man who was brutally raped and murdered in Nebraska in 1993 (the subject of the movie Boys Don’t Cry) to make sure that the law enforcement officials who had failed Teena were held accountable. This law comes too late to provide justice for the victims of violence we have already lost, but it holds the promise of greater safety and respect for LGBT people today and in the future. Our work is not done. Now that the Hate Crimes Act has become law, Congress and the President must also enact an inclusive ENDA to protect us against discrimination on the job. The majority of Americans support workplace protections for lesbians, gay men, bisexuals and transgender people and there is no reason for further delay. There is also no reason to delay the repeal of the so-called Defense of Marriage Act and Don't Ask, Don't Tell — there should be no place for discrimination in our laws. As one Justice Department official said, "[The Hate Crimes Act] is going to be used extensively." But our hope at Lambda Legal is that this law will not need to be used over and over again each year. Our hope is that antigay violence decreases and disappears. Today we celebrate this exciting progress, as we remember those we have lost to violence. Tomorrow, we continue working together to achieve equality. Kevin Cathcart Executive Director Lambda Legal Celebrate! Current Mood: accomplished (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 27th, 2009
9:12 pm	January: Mus Thtr/Light Opera M-TH 9-12:30 Spring: Bio 303-01 - Genetics MWF 8-9:05 M 1-4 Lab Chem 103-02 - Elem Organic/Biochem MWF 9:15-10:20 Psy 356-02 Research Methods TTH 9:40-11:10 Psy 420-01 SpclTpc:PhlPsyNeurosciConsci TTH 12:50-2:20 So the questions are - can I take organic instead of 212? (It being a 100 level...I'm skeptical. But NOWHERE under bio minor does it specify what chem classes they need to be, or specific ones that don't apply. PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE let me take this class!) and; do I want to take the special topics course? Doesn't directly go toward my major...but I'm quite good on major requirements...I don't particularly like philosophy...but I've had the teacher and he was ok (the psych teacher people tell me is amazing)...I can take it as 300 or 400...which one? But anyway. Timewise, this schedule kicks ass. That makes up my mind over spcltpcs vs. clinical/counseling - cc is only offered Monday nights. twas this semester too. Lame. ... I fucking hate my chemistry class. Aislin Current Mood: hungry (Comment on this)
Monday, October 26th, 2009
5:55 pm	...money=stress=anxiety=depression. I need to CHILL OUT. In a week and a half a huge weight should be off my shoulders. Maybe. I'm skeptical, but they assured me... So that's nice, but the rest of it stays. School/grades/papers, job hunting, job-failing, bills, relationships...I used to do well under stress. And yes, it does motivate me to try much much harder. But it also makes me sob with anxiety and insecurities I can't beat down nearly as well as when I'm relaxed. *sigh* That's all I got for now. Being an adult is hard work. Aislin Current Mood: anxious (Comment on this)
Friday, October 23rd, 2009
12:36 pm	Nearly done w/this round of tests. Bio lab practical at 1, should go alright. I've been studying for a few hours...will look over the importance stuff in 15 minutes, then go on luck and test-taking skills. Took chem last night; pretty sure i rocked that test. Only thing is, our teacher's a bitch, so I can't accurately predict what grade I got...if she gave me partial credit for the last problem, I'm hoping for an A. If not...it's less likely. I didn't finish the last problem because she times her tests. Our class meets for 2 3-hour sessions a week - she gives us one hour for each test. Fuck you. But I still think I did awesome. Then we did lab (oh yes, add that to the list of complaints - having to stay after finishing the test to do a lab...grr) and normally Emily and I kind of fail at chemistry lab...it's epicly hilarious. Yesterday we did everything absolutely PERFECT. Our ending calculation was 100%...that's absurd. Took my stats test a few days ago, skipped class yesterday (to study for my chem test) so haven't seen my test but I'd be very surprised if it wasn't another A. Also, got 102% on my ab psych exam. Both my psych classes are going superbly, gradewise. And Kristen and I did a hilarious, fun, entertaining puppet show about dissociative identity disorder (formerly multiple personality) that probably got us a good grade on that project. It was tons of fun. Unfortunately, I got a 79 on my bio test. That's not a great score...that's sad. But it's the hardest test of the course, I've used that disappointment to motivate me to focus and really grasp concepts during class, and our next unit is genetics (heck yes!). So not epic fail, just disappointing fail. I think that's a summary of all my classes. And I'll throw in there that Jim got a 90 on his stats test; I am happy for him. We study together. This weekend I'm cleaning and relaxing and filling out more job aps in Elmhurst, then going to the Museum of Science and Industry (for the first time!) w/T on Saturday. Caleb will probably come down at some point and we will have stress-free&money-free dating activities. That's the plan. Gonna go grab a vending machine lunch, cram for ten minutes, take a test! Aislin Current Mood: hungry (Comment on this)
Friday, October 16th, 2009
3:29 pm	2 Tests done I took my bio test this morning and omg stress! I studied, but not as much as I should have; I finished in time but w/no time to even think about the questions; I did well on the 35 pt epic-essay but not as well as I ought to have (I completely skipped a chunk)...So, probably a B? But I want an A so bad! But I don't deserve one, I put off studying until the night before, why did I do that? Cellular respiration I memorized weeks ago, photosynthesis I memorized two days ago (except the chunk I didn't realize existed which I consequently missed on the test, grr), but everything else - and those are only 2 out of 5 chapters - I didn't even look at until yesterday. Damn. But there wasn't a single question that I didn't have a chance at answering, so I'm feeling fairly confident...I really want a good score. Oh, and I did NOT manage my time well even though she warned us all ahead of time that that's what this test is about. But I'm a very slow test-taker. Finishing is good enough. I also had ab psych yesterday, which Kristin and I studied for for 2 1/2 hours right before the test and I feel like I got an A. I hope she did; she didn't do so hot on the first test, but she seemed to know as much or more than me when we were studying for this one. Stats is Tuesday, should be fine. Chemistry is Thursday, should be...let's not get into it. I went to lab today and started my pig teeth experiment, now I need to get my active ingredients and develop some kind of scale...*stress* It should work out ok though. It's a pretty straightforward design. Going to Rockford! My train leaves in 40 minutes. Tech at Auburn tomorrow. Plus studying. But, should be a pretty chill weekend. Aislin Current Mood: hungry (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 15th, 2009
1:07 pm	Potential Spring Sem Schedule Bio 303-01 - Genetics - Raimondi - MWF 8-9:05A Lab M 1-4 Chem 212-01 - Gen Chem II - TBA - MWF 10:30-11:35A Lab W 1-4 Psy 356-02 - Research Methods - Daniel - TTH 9:40-11:10A Class #4 is up in the air. Psych content course or gen ed. Looking at the psych ones, I can't take adolescent, which is sad, child isn't offered, clin/counseling maybe? A night class (lame!) but my classmate is in it now and really likes it. That's a strong possibility. Also, there's a very intriguing psych/phil class special topics being offered...idk about it. Anyway, this schedule should work out real well, if I get in to those classes. That's the only genetics class offered. Why in the world? And my labs are 1-4, like every single lab ever except my nightclass, so once again, after school jobs are a no, dammit! I'm freaking out about money...freaking out. I have nothing and I have bills to pay and I have no job aaaagggghhhhh :_( Current Mood: stressed (Comment on this)