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Thursday, July 2nd, 2009
1:43 pm	Oh Camp. I love my boys. I'm a floater in the whole boys dorm, but spending a lot of time w/the youngest and just loving it! Also, I think my programs are going pretty well this week ;) They didn't in Respite...stupid Respite. lol, actually I love Respite, just not programming. I'd LOVE to write about all of my wonderful kids in detail, and some of the other interesting things in my life, but haven't the time - ever. Just trust me...it's a good deal. Sophie and I have our 12 hour break together tomorrow. Heck yes - naughty shops here we come! lol never mind that... Oh, and I have a temporary trac phone. If you really desperately want that number, comment and I'll let you know, but I blew through 70 minutes in like 2 days, so... A'right I'm off! Aislin Current Mood: creative (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, June 22nd, 2009
2:54 pm	on Love and Work I have a few important things to say to the world, but I've already used up one of my four hours of break, so I don't want to take too long. ( Respite & Wawbeek; first impressions ) Alright, big news in my life outside of camp = Caleb and I celebrated our one year anniversary this weekend. It's actually today, but no big. It was beautiful...we went to a very nice kind of fancysmancy sit-down restaurant and had steaks and mushrooms and zucchini and mashed potatos, shared a chocolate mousse for desert. Delicious food, very romantic, very adult. Well, it would have been adult if I had been old enough to drink...that was kind of frustrating actually. I don't even like alcohol but it's the stereotypical thing to do to share a bottle of wine, and their only beverage list was alcohol...it just made me feel a bit too young. But overall, a beautiful night. Then we went and spent time at John & Joselyn's enjoying good conversation and Rockband. ...That was about the extent of the weekend. These shortened camp weekends kind of really suck, not gonna lie, but they still do wonders for the soul. A year...wow. Needless to say, that's a first for me in my life. I am extremely looking forward to this coming year with him, I foresee a lot of good things. Love is wonderful <3 I need to go call that boy now, then perhaps clean my disaster of a room? Or nap. Oh! Haha shower, that was what I meant to do today...I'm a wreck. Aislin Current Mood: relaxed (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 16th, 2009
1:53 pm	Oh geeze has become my new catch phrase. Can't tell you why. My back ache, my bra too tight, my booty shakes from the left to the right...translation: my body is in pain and reeses peanut butter cups cheer me up. the muscles in my back are sore, bones of my knees ache (that's a new sensation for me), and feet can barely hold me up by the end of the day. I feel better today than I did at 11 pm last night though; I thought I wouldn't be able to move. We'll see how I feel by Friday. The weekends are far far from long enough, personal care envelopes my entire camp life, lesson plans stress me out, and communication between the two camps could be much improved - between everyone and everything, actually. Like me and the world, or my boyfriend. Yeah... It's good though. I have no regrets about being here and I am holding out pretty well, I think. Poor Sophie is not having a good time and is seriously considering going home...we gave her a birthday party + surprise of Em & Thom this weekend! But she's still just really unhappy...:( I haven't been able to talk to Bailee much at all this summer, our relationships's really weird...grrr not enough time in one day! Seriously. I'm excited for Respite next week. Except programming for that camp sucks balls. Like way worse than here, I'm pretty sure, for the sole fact that we have to entertain up to 80 people at once time. Uhhhh yeah. Life has it's ups and downs. My anxieties have gotten worse, lots worse...mosquitos and cold showers make me want to hyperventilate and cry. After the shower incident, I really missed Ella, but otherwise I've been doing alright on the emotional side. Frankly, I just don't have time to be sad. My relationship w/Caleb has been really unpredictable though, some days are absolutely wonderful and others I'm trying to keep my voice from shaking on the phone for an hour and a half...summers are hard. I was definitely ready to be out of Elmhurst, again - no regrets, but this summer is and will continue to be very difficult on a whole multitude of levels. Oh good story though! Myself and three others, Amber B, Shannon C, and Amanda Jo went for a pretty intense outdoorsy hike at our "graduation" party Friday in Devil's Lake, and we ended up (not really by our fault) getting lost in the woods for 2 hours. It was possibly the best day I've had in my whole time here. Yay woods and friends! Some great pictures should come out of it too. I'm going to call Caleb and [write some programs???] Damn programs...>:-/ Aislin Current Mood: indescribable (Comment on this)
Monday, June 15th, 2009
2:09 pm	This weekend we had a camp reunion/slumber party w/myself, Sophie, Caleb, Emily, & Thomas, and it was pretty great. This week we have campers, and it's been...you know, camp. Aislin Current Mood: indescribable (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 9th, 2009
1:35 am	Oh my goodness camp... Oh my goodness life..... Sleep now? G'night. Current Mood: drained (Comment on this)
Friday, June 5th, 2009
11:44 pm	textsfromlastnight.com That's all I've got to say. That, and that I might just read my sock a bedtime story tonight, you never know here at camp... Aislin (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 2nd, 2009
8:52 pm	Important things of late (brief) My phone has decided it's not working at all. Not as in; it's broken, as in; I apparently have 0 service or money or something in my account. Also Caleb's phone is broke, and fb chat too fast for these computers to handle. Basically communication=nil. Tomorrow night I'm s'posed to meet Chels&girlscouts for dinner but we can't get ahold of eachother to plan it. AAAGGHH! I took a swim test tonight, possibly the hardest thing I've done at camp yet. Ie, I suck at swimming. My stubbornness is a wonderful thing sometimes, I absolutely refused to quit while treading water, and (though barely) made it. Yesterday we pulled mustard garlic weed in a (totally gorgeous - but also gay-cruising) park in Madison. Turns out I have some pretty intense anxiety about mosquitos. Fucking anxiety, why are you encroaching on my life more and more?! Singing helped me a lot. Again w/the determination, I kept at it til it was time to go, but it was not a comfortable time. Sophie gets here tomorrow (though I really have no idea when) and Bailee the day after that, heck yes! My roommate/mdd counterpart is really great and we work together fabulously. I'm kinda bummed we'll be in separate camps all summer long, so A) we won't actually get to lead a program together (cuz i think that would go really well) and B) we won't see a whole lot of eachother in general. Except the last 3 weeks, we'll all be at Respite, so that's pretty exciting. She's way cool and sweet and has great music taste! I gots my Jason and Postal Service today! And we just seem to be similar in the best of ways. I'm gonna go try and borrow someone's phone to call Caleb and Chelsea. Sucks that my phone doesn't work, seriously... Aislin Current Mood: discontent (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 31st, 2009
10:25 pm	I should be sleeping right now. I should be sleeping or doing FAFSA, or at the very least, showering. I'm wearing a hat tomorrow, it's decided. Tomorrow we get up early and AmeriCorps heads out to Madison to do a service project involving wild Mustard weeds and pulling them. This weekend was absolutely wonderful. And Caleb was above and beyond a good boyfriend. To mention just a part of why he deserves such praise tonight; he paid a good deal of money to rent a car plus mileage plus gas solely for my benefit, came along with me to a place he does not know and with people he does not feel particularly comfortable around, kept complaining to a very minimum, allowed me to be the loud, less inhibited self I so rarely am, in the process leaving him alone with these strangers quite a bit, and did it all with a boquet of roses AND Jason Mraz's "We Sing. We Dance. We Steal Things." There's more, but that list does a nice job. So...yes. I think you get the picture. I love him and he treats me very well...Thanks, darling. Wabasha was beautiful :) I loved it, simply loved it. I think seeing my family once every 6 months works out very well, and though I would most certainly like to see my friends and teachers more than that, I feel very happily content w/how I spent my time with them this weekend. Congratulations, Class of 09, and I was very glad I could be there to celebrate with you. I need to go to bed, really! Why am I still up?! Oh, and we went and hung out w/his La Crosse friends last night and then back to camp this morning. That was a pretty cool time too. I was in a super good mood, anything would have been cool, lol. Oh, and and Sophie gets here Wed, Bai Thurs, I have both those days (well, Wed evening) off, and Chels/Em/Bridget/RachelN will be in the Dells! What a great week. Unfortunately, no weekend and Soph probably won't be able to hang out w/us Wed night and Caleb might not be able to come up...which would be very sad. But gotta take the good w/the bad, and overall I'd call it a win. Aislin Current Mood: meh Current Music: jason!!!!! heck yes! (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 28th, 2009
11:38 pm	Updates Camp goes better now that I've had time to get to know some folks. I don't know why I let myself get so worked up about feeling out of place when I am perfectly aware it just takes me a little bit of time. Probably because the "in place" feeling I do get w/a bit of time is really just on the outskirts...accepted, maybe even liked, but easily removed. I don't know, this wasn't s'posed to be a thoughtful essay, just a straight-to-the-point update. I have a bit of a headache, which keeps me from wanting to stay on here - and it's late and I have to get up before 8, but I want to write and ramble and contemplate and think. I have a lot going on in my life and no opportunity to express it, even in my head which is unusual. The headache and dizziness of today, though both very very mild, are aggravating because they're my foolishly-starving-myself symptoms except we're at camp and I've been eating 3 meals a day for a week. wtf, body? Mom thinks maybe I have some blood sugar issues...cuz I know it's not anemia, I always get excellent hemoglobin reports when I give blood. I am now CPR-pro certified as well as basic first aid. 8 hours of training, I am feeling much more confident about it than the last time I got certified, but I certainly wouldn't want to ever have to use the knowledge...damn confidence levels, they'll be the death of me. Yesterday I had 8 hours of CPI training, no certification but lots of psych-lovers' heaven how to interract w/campers & deescelate anxiety and stuff, w/a bit of simple getting out of hair-pulls, bites, punches, the like. They're actually remarkably easy tricks, I wish I knew them when Toby would beat on me growing up! This 4 weeks of training stuff is no joke. So tomorrow Caleb is getting a rental car on his lunch, possibly leaving work a bit early, driving up here, picking up me, driving to Wab straight to grad. idk when we'll get there...hopefully on time, quite likely miss a lot of the ceremony though :( But it'll be great to be home. Very great, and watch my loverlies take this step. Teresa's going to call me now cuz we have tons of catching up to do, so goodnights all. gosh...it's much too late...meh, sleep is for the weak. Aislin Current Mood: apathetic (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 26th, 2009
4:54 pm	Grade finalities Acting - B Social Psych - A GLBT - B Bio - B So...a bit disappointing...but I can live. At least it's not a C, thank goodness. And actually, by my calculations my biology grade was 79.0something percent, so I think it was just Arriola being nice to give me a B :) I really appreciate that. Acting and GLBT I am both a little sad about but not overly surprised because I had no way of really knowing what to expect so I anticipated B's. I'm on break til dinner at 5:30...clearly not socializing. Oops. Aislin Current Mood: bored (Comment on this)
10:42 am	*NOTE I forgot a minus on yesterday's entry and it definitely deserves to be there. We sing a prayer before each meal...they're fun and cute but yeah...you all know how I feel about that. (Comment on this)
Monday, May 25th, 2009
10:49 pm	Easter Seals camps; Pluses: OMG NATURE. Beautiful, gorgeous, I have missed the trees and the bluffs and the rivers and animals and mostly the trees & the bluffs. Missed them so much. I am incredibly grateful to be back in this environment...and surrounded by 400 acres of it at that!!! My roomie. Just met her a few hours ago, her name is Megan. She's the other music/drama/dance person, so it's cool that we're rooming together, should help us both out w/programming. She's also a psych major and plays trumpet and french horn. For serious. She's quiet but friendly and laid back. We should get along just fine :) Campers. Who are not here yet. But believe me, they will be the greatest plus of the summer! I wish I didn't have to wait three more weeks for campers...some came on Friday to do the ropes course as practice for our staff and that was refreshing. The Castle! I live in the building called "the Castle" and it's pretty much the coolest thing ever...So old and so incredibly unique, each room has it's own style and design and...I'll need pictures. I'll try hard to get some this summer. My room I share w/Megan is "the round room" upstairs and it is very much round - we're in a turrety tower type thing. Kickass. I mean...round is a little inconvenient of a shape and even though we have bunks, our room isn't set up very well, so it's awfully small...but it's round and in a tower. I still win. The other buildings on grounds (Wawbeek - I've barely explored Respite). Right now I'm in a computer lab for our use. We have a huge screen tv, a pretty nice staff kitchen, many a sofa and chillaxing area, and good laundry facilities. Most of this is located in the girls' dorms, which I think will also be totally awesome when we have campers. Doors and lights function automatically. Soph & Bailee. Will be here in 1.5 weeks and gosh I'm excited, like yeah. Minuses: Getting here late (Thurs&Fri out of a 5 day week). Between returners who are already very aquainted and cliquey and missing out on the name-games or ropes bonding, I was accutely aware of being the newcomer. I'm making friends, but it's slow going and kind of a struggle for me not to be a loner on my phone or internet or reading a book or doing laundry...speaking of which...I was w/a group of people before I got distracted by the computers...but I'm bonding w/another girl in here, so it evens out. But yeah, I feel a little out of place. Music & Drama...we'll see about that. I'm still nervous. But next week is program training, all week, so hopefully that will help a lot. Plus Megan and the other supportive leadership staff. Not being w/Caleb (or Teresa or anybody I'm close to [til my friends get here!]). I've actually seen him a lot more since coming here than is normal but it feels harder because he's so far away...and there's no guarantee of getting him every weekend, unless he gets a car. It's a little worrying. And he misses me and I build off that until we're both lonely and "homesick"... One of the girls I've spent a lot of my time with. Drives me a little nuts. We'll leave it at that. Getting up early. Tomorrow I don't have to report til 11 AM! Yes! Last Friday it was 7:30 though :( Alright folks, I'm outta here. Hopefully (and by hopefully I mean this is 100% my plan and goal for next weekend, but it's not entirely in my hands) I will be arriving in Wabasha just in time for graduation. Oh gosh that'll be nice...I'm thrilled to be seeing you all again. Thrilled. Aislin Current Mood: content Current Music: megan has good music on her ipod! double win! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 20th, 2009
10:45 am	Oh school. School is silly. I had an A in psych all semester long - and not just any A, a high A. I had 103% on both tests we had taken and thought I had written a kickass paper. She pretty much told me if I added one clause in to a sentence in my paper, I would get the "grade I want". So I did and felt good about it but then she gave me a B...I'm really sad. I really didn't think I'd get a B on that paper :( And also, my overconfidence about my psych grade kind of decreased the amount of preparation I put in for test 3 (and that whole section was taught differently...it took forever and was disrupted w/presentations other than Taking Sides, it was weird) and so I think I probably got a B on the test and now I'm concerned that I might have gotten a B in the class since the whole class is only 100 points and I'm kinda pissed! I DO NOT WANT A B IN PSYCH! I was quite pleased w/myself for doing so well in my major class. Dammit. Then, the funny news is I might actually get a B in bio...it's possible. To get a flat 80% in the class I need a 131 out of 150 on this morning's cumulative test, which I actually think may be possible. To get a rounded B (79.5% and up) I need 128. Fuck yes! I mean...it may not happen. It very well may not happen. But there is hope. It was by far the best test I've taken in that class all semester. But I'll probably wind up w/a C in the class, and that sucks too. AAAAGHHH! I don't get these kinds of grades...I've never gotten a C in my life, I think. Plenty on midterms but not final grades...Dammit. Acting also might be a B, could be an A, I have no real way of knowing. She's a tough grader on our performances... GLBT I think is an A. Again, no way of knowing. But now...I'M DONE! Goodbye freshman year! Goodbye 8 am or 6 pm classes! Goodbye beautiful campus and wonderful faculty! Goodbye friends and acquaintances! I'm sure I'll miss it over the summer, but right now I am so ready. I leave for camp today, that's right! Heck yes. Other good news: T & I signed our lease tomorrow, now all we need to do is send Laura our first month checks over the summer and that's squared away. Plus, we like Laura and her kitty is cute. Not that I'm particularly looking forward to living w/two cats...but they'll have more than one room this time, so it should be alright. I'm gonna go do something productive, probably FAFSA. Then I need to fashion my bike headlight and cute hat into a headlamp, eat some lunch, finish packing, clean some more, chillax til Caleb gets here. Sounds like a good day. Adios Aislin Current Mood: sick w/anxiety, been all week (Comment on this)
Monday, May 18th, 2009
5:05 pm	I just had my final practice w/K Spang and she was very impressed w/how much work and progress I've made on it since last week. She seemed pleased and confident about my performance tomorrow, plus I asked her what my grade was and she went through her book and is fairly certain unless I bomb tomorrow (which I actually might do, lol) I should get an A. Good. GLBT...nobody knows because she also doesn't post grades, nor give us letter grades on assignments, but I got all mine in, did my final project, attended I think every class...that one should be fine as well. Psych I'm a little worried I have gotten myself overconfident about, because I have a very strong A in the class and have gotten over 100% on our previous two tests, but I don't think I know tonight's material as well and haven't studied it because of the overconfidence (and over-filled schedule - today was full!). But I'm gonna study from now til 6:30 and again, unless I do unreasonably poorly, I think I'll have an A in that class as well. That leaves biology. Bio I have a C in, and unless I got full points on my experiment report (he hasn't posted those grades yet) and do very well on wednesday's cumulative, it will stay a C. Or I suppose maybe go down to a D if I bomb it wednesday, but I doubt it. But still, C? I don't get C's! a;lkejfoi *whimper* Tomorrow after acting (so, after 3 pm) all of my day will be dedicated to studying for my bio test, I've got the materials to do so, I've got the time, I think I've got the drive...maybe I can get a B. That would be totally acceptable. C, not so much. So wish me luck! It's Monday evening; this time Wednesday Caleb and I will be loading my stuff up before I leave our apartment for good. Fuck yes. T & I had another meeting w/Laura today (she met Madi!) and it's going really well. I think we'll be swell roommates. And we're signing our Terrace lease tomorrow, so that's all but in the bucket! Life is good. Camp, here I come! Summer, get ready! But first, I'm takin' down finals. Aislin Current Mood: accomplished (Comment on this)
3:36 pm	43 hours, baby. (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 17th, 2009
11:36 pm	I was writing a paper. These are things I found that made me giggle! heehee Yeah... "I am distressed for you, my brother Jonathan; You have been very pleasant to me; Your love to me was wonderful, Surpassing the love of women." The Old Testament version of "son-of-a-bitch": "You son of a perverse, rebellious woman!" http://johnshore.com/2009/04/17/christians-minus-the-sex-is-gay-love-ok/ Goodnight. Aislin (Oh, and I finished my paper, but so much for studying, cleaning, packing tonight...) Current Mood: chipper (2 Comments |Comment on this)
6:34 pm	Oh my goodness, really? really mom? This is why... I do not like her. And I don't like her having a facebook. Her status update: "Understand. What I've become. It wasn't my design. - the Cranberries" Her 'Write about yourself' box under the profile pic: "If I had three Aislins instead of one I'd have the opposite reputation as a mother than I do." Her recent activity: "Leta joined the group Anti-Islam." (which I'm now debating her on, feel free to help me out) ...*huge sigh* Aislin and shit I'm s'posed to be doing things! Fucking library! I need to write a glbt article but i'm not and if i were home I could instead be cleaning/packing/studying. GAHHHH GET TO WORK! UPDATE: Never mind, she took it off her page - our discussion, not the recent activity update. She says it's a "private argument" and that nothing I have said logically stands up to her points. I disagree but whatever...I really do need to be writing my paper, not arguing w/my mom. Well, I am writing it, but faster! I only have 20 min til one acts and I'm only 1 page out of 4 done! Dammit, looks like I'll be back here after them...:( Current Mood: exasperated (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, May 15th, 2009
6:25 pm	Closing time...you don't have to go home, but you CAN'T. STAY. HERE! ( final day of Y work reminiscing ) Other great news: I have been cleaning my apartment, and while there's still shittons to be done and I'll probably be scrambling at the last minute before leaving, I am making some headway. It's a nice feeling. Also, my boy will be here relatively soon...idk when yet. Before midnight, anyway. <3 And...get ready for it...best news of all...I'M OUTTA HERE NEXT WEDNESDAY! No more tests, no more 8 am classes, no more exhausting night classes, no more papers to write, no more projects to finish, YES more camp and more friends and more laundry (I'm a lamo, I'm aware) and more summer! So flipping ready. To be out of here. Mmmmhmm. I should go eat or clean. Adios, amigos. Oh, and I'm pretty sure (but not 100%) I'll be at graduation :) Can't wait. Aislin Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: ...one last call for alcohol... (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 12th, 2009
12:31 pm	haircut Oh, and I got a (pretty drastic) haircut this weekend, here's a pic. I feel like the statue of liberty. And I need some gel of my own. Credit goes to John, who's studying the craft and did mine for free ;) Aislin Current Mood: accomplished (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, May 11th, 2009
9:40 pm	I feel better. It was a hard morning and a hard weekend...Did you know I passed up going to the zoo w/my sweetheart on his birthday weekend so I could stay on campus all sunday to write a paper :( How sad is that? I'm sorry, boyfriend! I tried to not spend all my saturday (his actual birthday) being a lame student. So I was in the Schaible chem comp lab til 1 AM, got to sleep around 2, got up at 5:30 to continue paper-writing. Then went to class, slept through a lot of it, more paper-writing, lab test which I did extremely poorly on, turned in the dreaded shitty paper (along w/the random lab handout he gave us yesterday - 3 things on the same day? wtf, teacher?) and was DONE!!! We didn't have a lab, just our test, which was unusual and a pleasant surprise. and OMG did I feel better after bio. I went home and chillaxed for an hour and had lighthearted conversation w/John via text and spilled soup all over my bed (I'm a lamo, I know) then went to counseling. My last counseling session, at that. I'm gonna miss it, it did me worlds of good and my counselor was a real sweetheart - and brilliant! An inspiration for my career goals :) John and I are getting to be better and better friends as time goes on, it's really nice. Took me off guard because I met him as "girlfriend of friend" and the role seemed to be sticking, at first - by no fault of anybody, just circumstances. I was pretty sure I had a much higher chance of having Joselyn as an actual friend of mine than John...but that hasn't been the case. They're both totally awesome people, I enjoy our weekends w/them. And John's conversation to brighten my shittastic mornings! I'm out of here SO SOOOOOOON! It's Monday night, this time in a week and two days I'll be at my home for the summer! Oh my god, wording it that way made me so excited =D I'm well aware I'm gonna be out of here soon, but i don't think I'd put it in terms of I'LL BE THERE in recent past. I'm super excited for camp. Super uber. My friends don't show up til several weeks after me though, which is laaaame. Tis ok, it'll give me the opportunity to stay up all night doing laundry, which I'm also way excited for. Yes, I need a more exciting life. Oh, other important news is that Teresa and I have our living situation almost all worked out for next year and bonus is we get who I think will be a great roommate! Also, it was remarkably easy to arrange & we'll have a real place to live, complete w/a kitchen, living room, and bed for me! Yesss. Alright, I'm gonna go home and make a grilled cheese sandwhich in our toaster oven (wish me luck so I don't burn it - our hotplate kinda died) and maybe watch Stardust and maybe do serious work on my acting monologue and maybe wash out the bedsheet full of soup soaking in the tub...fun. Aislin Current Mood: much improved Current Music: nick cave - into my arms (Comment on this)